Emotional Eating? Emotional Shopping? Yes, Ma’am
“Instead of a relationship with my credit card, I have a relationship with someone who loves me back…and never denies me.”
Is it possible that my relationship with food and my relationship with shopping were both results of yearning for a relationship with something (or someone) else? I take full responsibility for my credit card debt, but it’s no wonder it was accumulated during a time when I lived in a lifeless and horrible marriage, and used credit cards as a way to fill a home with something when I knew it could not be filled with love. Curtains and blinds, light fixtures and towel bars, towels and sheets and euro shams. At the time, they seemed so important – I had to fill that home, the home I built. But what I really wanted, needed, and yearned for was a relationship that would fill a home without things.
The 80 lbs I’ve lost have been solely because I (finally) developed a relationship with myself – a relationship that filled my home and made me ready to allow someone else to fill it as well. And now, I feel for the first time I can have a relationship without a credit card – with someone who loves me back…and never denies me.