How CrossFit (Almost) Crushed My Spirit

Posted December 3, 2013 by Katherine Toll in Life After Five
Crossfit woman crying

Almost….I’m not not down for the count yet, but I was sorely tested yesterday. (No pun intended.) 

Afterward, while I laid in a defeated heap on the verge of tears, I contemplated my situation.

What was the real issue?

  • Were the other kids mean to me?
  • Was the terminally perky teacher mean to me?
  • Was I injured?

No, no, and no. The real issue splattered in front of me: I’m not used to sucking this bad compared to the rest. BUT, what I’m also not used to is setting and maintaining personal boundaries that make sense for me — no one else.

For instance:

  • I have a history of abusing exercise in the name of unhealthy thinness
  • I’ve sustained numerous injuries over the years because of this little obsession
  • I spent several years under-nourished while indulging in said obsession

So, through gazillions of dollars in therapy, I re-learned:

  • That MY best is good enough
  • Slow and steady wins the race — I’m not the fastest, but I frigging finish
  • No pain, no gain is a lie

In the past I would continue CrossFit until I conquered it — now I continue CrossFit, so I practice life in the ‘less perfect’ zone. Who wants to join me?


Interested in learning the right way to participate in cross fit? Read Crossfit Demystified. 

About the Author

Katherine Toll

Katherine (Kathi) Toll possesses more than 20 years of management and consulting experience within the retail and beauty industry. Her industry experience combined with her special brand of irreverence fuels her mission to find the ‘must-have’ beauty products for Career Girls of all ages. She aspires to remind women the airbrushed perfection of the beauty industry must be tempered with a healthy dose of humor. Kathi holds a general management certification from Northwestern’s Kellogg School of Management, along with an undergraduate degree from Northwestern’s School of Communications.