Show Up for Yourself
Hey there! You might remember me as the “I-only-do-challenges-in-month-long-increments person” (see: whole 30 & meditation challenge). Usually what I do is set a goal and maybe tell one or two people and then keep it to myself until it’s over and I’ve reflected on what I’ve learned. This time, I’m only 9 days in but I’m just bursting with information so I want to share some of it with you. This piece comes from a class at Moksha Yoga (for those of you who are Minneapolis people) Imagine my delight when I learned hot yoga can really be sweaty self-love and acceptance therapy. Yum, right?
So I show up for yoga about 15 seconds before the class is supposed to start and I have this story going back and forth in my head about if I’m really tired (it was 6am after all) and sore (it was my 8th class in a row of hot yoga) or if this is just in my head and I can power through it. We start moving along and at some point in the class we were transitioning from one position/pose to another and I totally decided in that moment that I was going to skip a part and move to the resting pose.
I did it. And the teacher noticed. I’m almost self centered enough to think that everything the yoga teacher is saying about the practice is about me but this time she really did start talking and it was about what I just did. She was standing right behind me and I hadn’t noticed. This probably isn’t you but I know that I try to make my yoga pose extra yogi-ish when someone else is watching. Have you ever been there?
“Find your sense of self integrity. Once you’ve decided to commit to your practice, stand in it. Do all of the small steps. Your community probably won’t always notice but you will know. Show up for yourself. “
Busted. It was such a learning experience.
I could have actively chosen to be in a resting pose the whole class if that’s what was right for my body. I didn’t choose that. I chose to do the movements but I was trying to cheat, to get to resting faster, to let myself off the hook. I was compromising my integrity. I was decreasing my self trust. I wasn’t showing up for myself.
Our selves, our bodies are waiting for us to show up. To give all of us, to see all of us in our own light of self love. To go through every teeny tiny move of the practice because we deserve it. We deserve the gift of our whole self. Not a half assed job that we would never give to someone else. All of us, with integrity.
What’s your yoga wisdom? I’d love to hear it. I’m learning so much.